You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart
You’re the only one

And though there are times when I hate you
‘Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now when I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I remember when my niece, Tony, was a newborn. I’d babysit her and sometimes she’d cry, like babies do. And I’d do everything I could to identify the source of the problem… Nine times out of ten I could solve the problem, I could figure it out, but… sometimes… I’m walking down the street and a shaft of light falls a certain way across the pavement and I just wanna cry. And then a second later it’s over. And I decide, because I’m an adult, to not succumb to the momentary melancholy and I thought that, sometimes with Tony, she just had a moment like that. A moment of not knowing how or why and she just let herself go into it. And there was nothing anyone could do to make it any better. It was just her, and the fact of being alive…colliding.